the pains eating away

day 41,
so much for keeping up with the blog.

this will be totally confusing and I'll be rambling, and ill try and paragraph things correctly. hopefully. and all of my commas will be in the wrong spots. sorry !
that's all we've been learning about with grammar in english. i swear i learned more in the first 2.. or has it been 3? weeks of english class this year then i have my entire english career. 4 years of true english class, going strong! see there should be no comma there.. I'm gonna shut up.
god when i type blogs I'm like talking to myself . this is unhealthy.

so yesterday i realized i have become way to dependent on the computer. actually I'm not dependent, i just jump onto online sites, which is ironic, because for the past 2 weeks that has been heavily discouraged.

i realized these past few months i can not go a day without some ailment occurring. i feel like my chest is being stabbed right now, my nose stuffy. i have exactly 4 cuts on my fingers and i came home sick yesterday. my headache has been trailing me along off and on for months at a time, its like a tea kettle. quietly simmering, until the whistle howls and it hits you.

its snowing. apparently, we've been having all these snowstorms, like with actually names. blizzards. to me, its just snow. it doesn't seem any more scarier then all the other times, but hey, we knew about being off last night, that's a plus right?

there is no point to this blog. but i wanted to really just outline my goals. some of which have already been accomplished. which is raising my grades. so here it goes...

GOALS:
-break a 4.0
-get my nose pierced (march?)
-find a good camera. digital? one for concerts and amazing photography, without breaking my parents wallet.
+ (hey look i have an outline!) learn how to become an amazing photographer before i die
+ learn how to do bokeh
-master photoshop
-get a summer job
-find a way to organize my jewelery
-go through absolutely everything and get rid of what i don't need
-start going to the gym more
+actually have noticeable results
-read a book at least once a month
-clean out my ipod (or get a new one)
-master eyeliner (the bottom)
-refrain from wasting money
-find the 'it's about time' cd
-start a record collection
-actually go see all the movies i want to, in theater
-win something
-manage to not have a dud of a 16th
-haircut
+donate to locks of love
+get a right cut/high-low lights
-find my style
+shop for clothes (reasonable priced)
+vintage shopping
-get good at singing
-figure out more about colleges
-meet a celebrity
+stick in
-continue with collections
+sunglasses
+pins
-find the first jb rolling stone magazine
-go to California
-actually post youtube videos
-keep record of my life
-don't loose things
+clips
-master daily routines
-figure out my password for everything
+delete sites i don't use
-get rid of myspace after pictures saved
+find, save, and remember where pics are saved (this is important)
-keep up with my blog (even if just for me)
... one last goal...
-have fun (:

that probably is not all i wanted to say, but oh well




this is the view from my window, my bench is hidden. how much snow accumulated?