fedora wearing new yorkers

a glimpse in the past, stuck in the present; not so glam experience of the average teenage experience

sitting on the computer its like piecing together that cool trendy urban music bound life with camera in hand experience life that i'd totally fit into.
i love looking through photography and now totally realized the greater need for a kick - a** (sorry no cursing) camera.
but i found daytrotter.com & throwboy.com which are pretty awesome, and althoug the maine does not fit they will be there sept 7th- (which seems to be a lot of things that day)
i was bound for the west? (of where i live) but those plans were shut down
my trip to ulta is much needed because of liquid liners, black & purple liners, and white shadow, and throw in some silver glitter? with a 20% of coupon
cold blood is waiting but i've got mustache pillows, and cyndi/gaga lipgloss on the brain.
i need some bags and some cool indie trends.
the computer makes me yearn for those early 20 days when i can ff through psats, sats, pssas, nhs and all of those things that cause sheer panick, when i can chill in a coffee shop and dine with torn jean, facial hair cuties with a good book and go back to the record collection (have you seen the new ipod touch?!) and then just a little later... for classy partys elegant eyes glossy lips jeweled out and fine music , with the edgier parties and trips around the world.
(i forget what i was just gonna say... thank you distractions )
i need a city trip on the train, and to head to that big city..
and will see what else when the lips will hush and the thoughts will silence.
oh yeah. p.s. no more ke$ha? what about joan jett...? mmm sounds like a start!

but for now ill be doing that typical high school thing. on the outside of the inside

is tumblr in my future?

just to add... if i do not accomplish.. i will waste. look at pasts posts. mimicks..
and it kicks and it kicks like pony!

i've been floating from 12-14, and i need to reach 20
i need to travel the world, and get a classic car.
im on the hunt,
i wanna live in nyc.
lace and vintage, some kicks and studded capris.. need to plan a concert outfit..
im thinking of kesha looks need to grab her duds.
pink & purples look good on me, my lower lines lookin better
purple liner, liquid black, white poweder shadow..
blurbs but they all make sense to me..
beach. permit. book. vacation? 3 hang outs and school year weekends..
thinking halloween , homecoming and the halls of _____.
just gotta keep hitting the gym, buy a white phillies tee.
cheeseteak and john o and more vintage shopping
hmm....

so this summer has.. (or will have) a few brief shining moments..
but other then that, its a dud. and im getting sick of people posting all there wonderful times..
i need a vacation. the beach. and i want a cruise, a trip to cali and one to europe. (keep in mind these are all eventuallys...not now of course)
13. is becoming a number that likes sticking to me..
more then week, and im still at 13 ..
my gloves were a fail. im looking at makeup.
i need polaroid film.
im watching 500 days of summer soon. and making an awesome seared steak with onions and gorgonzola cheese.
i need to lose 20 by the end.
im cutting off hair for locks of love.. getting it highlighted.
toning, tanning, de redding, ring, healthy and whitening.
hopefully that will be the silver lining of this summer.
; along with a concert, a phillies game.
possible drive in, possible beach day, beach stay, weekend trip, and maybe a trip to rice's?

i still need to check out nhs forms, as well as summer reading book.
buy a bathing suit... and permit..
hmm.....


no picture today. im not feeling it.

lazy days, summer nights..something about tans and water fights..?

well my summer, has consisted of working out, dieting and the occasional dip in the pool. there are lots of plans, but not much is ever done about them..
and i'm not going to the beach, and im not documenting my summer. without a camera or working webcam its particularly hard.

im looking forward to my concert. august 5th, and hopefully while down there, i can pick up a nose ring (:
july 22 i might meet stereo skyline? (: how awesome would that be? well meet them..

i only got burned once, .. and then it officially felt like summer..
no tan for me this year.

11 lbs and counting. cant wait for more changes coming at the end of summer (:


my big summer indulgence, jim's steaks. this is where our south street adventure will start.

howdy,
so its summer finally..
i haven't been on here in a very long time.
so i'll tell you whats new.
my sweet 16 was a success. my cake was gorgeous.. everything matched.
my little ocd gets worse and worse..
i've cleaned.
i got an ipod touch
i've lost 6 lbs, and am reading skinny bitch so hopefully ill be on the way to natural and healthy
(:
went to two sweet sixteens recently,
seeing eclipse in a few weeks, saw killer,
having a tent party. car show is july 31st. concert aug 5th, phillies game sometime in august
need to buy dad cheesecake for birthday
need to find my visa gift card
must go shopping,
beach is needed.. some sort of vacation.
four seasons, pittsburgh? are they still on the list?
hopefully things will work out..

ill be a singer with the blowout hair, pearly whites, the glitz , the glam and the rock & roll pierce

i've got a vision.

its spring time, although it feels like summer.

all i can think of is music, makeup, clothes and plans of going far away...

that sums it up.
besides the fact that hypocrites lace the everyday. people are being used and broken.

whats left: job, money, thin, clothes, makeup

i'll take a pair; for dreams, wishes, hope&love and a fresh perspective

maniac

im addicted to studs
my stress level's hitting the max- thank you procrastination.
i seem to find bits of time here and there for absolutely everything i wanna do- besides what gets dismissed for one reason or another- that serves no really point of me moving up in my life.

but who's to really say?
goals: be.

camera; i wanna be behind the lens, a new inspiration
broken paths, sweet cars, and a tinted view

tom

im not consistent, but im pretty good at posting when things are important.
generally.

another sweet 16 on the way.

talk about conformity, protagonist. i wanna be that one person to change, stand out. im an individual, an individual following the trends of those outside this suburban snowglobe.
is it enough?

i need wedges, and dangly earrings. and a good day with eye makeup. max factor and urban decay, your on your way. i need to bring in clinique and try not to look like death.

cameras. please come. a Philly steak, a walk around town, a tent. that's what i want.
i miss those green days, starry nights. i want to blow bubbles, take photos, and feel the sand between my toes. i wanna hike, camp out and roast marshmallows.

but just one wish. snow tomorrow, a day off and no s.s. test.

my train of thought ended from where it was.

p.s.
ill take some vintage, and a fresh coat of paint. the old, the new.

i miss this.

this is reality

alright so its been a few days since my last post, and not much is really happening. well.. happened.
i've been doing better in school. went to an awesome sweet 16.

but this is more about whats coming up. a booked weekend, but knowing my luck all plans will be canceled.
i need to find a dress for a sweet 16. and i need to see... shutter island, valentine's day, and the lightening thief.

but the main point of this article.. haha i mean blog. for me, i guess and for those of well no one that reads this.
formsprings have become the web's (mainly facebook) version of truthbox from myspace.
its a place where people submit questions. but it has turned into for most people, a place where cowards come and post what they think.
people who judge, don't have any right to.
and you don't know whats going on in their life. choose your words carefully and well don't be a butt.
if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all. and if it really matters that much, don't spam their formspring with pointless comments, say it to our face.
we had an entire three weeks on dating, internet bullying, etc, and look at what is still going on. although people (including myself) bring it upon our selves (technically) by creating these sits.
we don't need your criticism. those are for your head , and your head only. although it doesn't bother me, some people it does,
and even if your serious, you probably don't mean all you say when you know that some of these people could have horrible tradgic backgrounds, or you could push their way to the end.
so please, don't post what people don't care about. you just look like an idiot, because that's all you really are.

i want studded everything.

variety

so i posted the title, thinking that would be what my blog focused around. and i think its more going to rambling.
variety is in music, clothes, people, beauty.
pretty much it.

im wearing vintage earrings from my momma, but i need cooler clothes.
more clothes.
i need to go snag the betsey johnson glasses i hid.
i need to find the glasses i've lost.
i have a sunglass collection. a button (as in pin) collection. and a coin collection.
those are the most significant collections i'd like to keep up with. i have a pencil, rock, stamp collection..
someone once told me a collection was 3 or more items. i have a collection of everything.

my clothes are a variety. my music. and i realized people can think all types of people are beautiful.
i prefer tall dark and handsome.. and muscular. generally speaking.

i got an a on my math test.

i need jeggings. i need to go shopping. i need to buy a gift for my friend.

my hair is long,
i change my facebook profile picture too much,
i ramble a lot,
i make no sense...a lot,
i miss a lot of people,
i hope it snows on monday.
i embarass myself a lot.
i need to go shopping tonight.... somehow i feel like i've said this.

i can't type fast enough for my thoughts, so now they float in an endless abyss, the ones from now and the ones from my bus.
i had an idea for my picture, but now im not sure which one, or if i've jsut forgotten all of them. this makes no sense... are you confused?

i wish i had a mole, a real monroe mole, and i wish i could smoke, only in the classy form, maybe i'll settle for studded clothing.

what makes average?

i may just end up posting another blog tonight perhaps, or one tomorrow. but i know if i wait any longer my thoughts from this morning will vanish.

16.5 inches of snow last night. i came home and sat with earmuffs on until they warmed once i took a shower.

simple things in life are the most pleasurable at times. friends&company. cheese-its. music. and a fuzzy robe.

i forgot to mention the falling out i had with the snow, that last saturday we received over 12 inches. and because of that 12 inches, my tour was canceled . we the kings, i will see you one day.

i set a goal to win a contest. hopefully that might be the taylor swift concert. maybe the selena gomez. second goal, to make a friend in a celebrity. i'm not saying that just because of who they are, but they're astounding people i wish i knew before they were famous, because i know i'd fit in just fine with them.

another average thing.
gasoline - snowblowers and pickup trucks.
chocolate cake for breakfast. it is those simple things.

i look at astounding women. i want to be them. they're unqiue, far from average. but being that average person with one good quality makes them something that the world cherishes, i believe i hold that quality. so i'll stand before the world to judge; one day.
until that time. i will enjoy the snow (:

the kennedy family.
jackie o, so poised, so full of class.

the pains eating away

day 41,
so much for keeping up with the blog.

this will be totally confusing and I'll be rambling, and ill try and paragraph things correctly. hopefully. and all of my commas will be in the wrong spots. sorry !
that's all we've been learning about with grammar in english. i swear i learned more in the first 2.. or has it been 3? weeks of english class this year then i have my entire english career. 4 years of true english class, going strong! see there should be no comma there.. I'm gonna shut up.
god when i type blogs I'm like talking to myself . this is unhealthy.

so yesterday i realized i have become way to dependent on the computer. actually I'm not dependent, i just jump onto online sites, which is ironic, because for the past 2 weeks that has been heavily discouraged.

i realized these past few months i can not go a day without some ailment occurring. i feel like my chest is being stabbed right now, my nose stuffy. i have exactly 4 cuts on my fingers and i came home sick yesterday. my headache has been trailing me along off and on for months at a time, its like a tea kettle. quietly simmering, until the whistle howls and it hits you.

its snowing. apparently, we've been having all these snowstorms, like with actually names. blizzards. to me, its just snow. it doesn't seem any more scarier then all the other times, but hey, we knew about being off last night, that's a plus right?

there is no point to this blog. but i wanted to really just outline my goals. some of which have already been accomplished. which is raising my grades. so here it goes...

GOALS:
-break a 4.0
-get my nose pierced (march?)
-find a good camera. digital? one for concerts and amazing photography, without breaking my parents wallet.
+ (hey look i have an outline!) learn how to become an amazing photographer before i die
+ learn how to do bokeh
-master photoshop
-get a summer job
-find a way to organize my jewelery
-go through absolutely everything and get rid of what i don't need
-start going to the gym more
+actually have noticeable results
-read a book at least once a month
-clean out my ipod (or get a new one)
-master eyeliner (the bottom)
-refrain from wasting money
-find the 'it's about time' cd
-start a record collection
-actually go see all the movies i want to, in theater
-win something
-manage to not have a dud of a 16th
-haircut
+donate to locks of love
+get a right cut/high-low lights
-find my style
+shop for clothes (reasonable priced)
+vintage shopping
-get good at singing
-figure out more about colleges
-meet a celebrity
+stick in
-continue with collections
+sunglasses
+pins
-find the first jb rolling stone magazine
-go to California
-actually post youtube videos
-keep record of my life
-don't loose things
+clips
-master daily routines
-figure out my password for everything
+delete sites i don't use
-get rid of myspace after pictures saved
+find, save, and remember where pics are saved (this is important)
-keep up with my blog (even if just for me)
... one last goal...
-have fun (:

that probably is not all i wanted to say, but oh well




this is the view from my window, my bench is hidden. how much snow accumulated?

one years gone by and bringing the past back

i thought i almost already skipped a day until i realized that i did my first on on new years day (:
well let me tell you what happened yesterday,
yesterday we took a trip to the city to my favorite aunt and uncle,
the tastykake household .
the evening was an open house with conversations from records, to peircings/tattoos , crimes, and back flashes of dr who and the pirates, lynard skynard, the doors and then even just a flasback to the more present of 3oh!3
it ended with getting a tastykake computer mouse and ornament and 20 dollars in a very nice new wallet.
everytime i go to that home , i have tons of laughs
i may not have family but my extended family of friends have always been there with open arms.

do you know that its nearly impossible to find sweatpants for girls with pockets and sweat pants
well it is,
and i finally got some only to have guessed the wrong size, turns out this are pretty oddly sized sweats
a whole new wardrobe for cleaning the house
looking forward to seeing nick jonas and the administration,

only wishing to meet them,
if only a 100 dollars could buy a lifetime friendship

i love the brotherly support.. one day <3

post 2009 reflection, hello 2010

I've always wanted a blog.
I've thought of video journals, photo blogs, and here I am...
blogger, thank you google.

im going to miss days, or look back, and wonder why i wrote that.
there will be thousands or errors, and the format will probably change day to day.
im sure there will be tears and laughs; possibly. and hopefully this ever popular blog will manage to sustain one reader; me.

so as i babble through 365 days of me, lets do a recap. for me.

2009, since i have not been following you, i'll start.
january- started off by myself i believe. i really don't remember anything...
february- see the thing about this is my life really stunk back then, i was in the midst of fights and changing. joyous? oh in fact.
march- st patricks day.. can't remember a thing..
april- was easter this month, maybe?
may- ah, so this is when things got exciting.
lets rap off what i remember...
- my birthday- 15 (:
-memorial day... which i have no reccolection of, but the weekend after..
- great wolf lodge, and a tremendous shopping spree, in the outlets.
- my mom went away to California for her 50th

lets move on.. im forgetting a lot. oh well,

june- finally, the time has arrived to say our farewells middle school.
done with tms. won the community service award. quite a shocker, and spent the evening with friends at a party.. what else was in june...? my other friend's party..

as the months go by im getting my memory back!

july- fourth of july i want to say was spent in lancaster... yes it was,
at the steam boat inn! mini golf, geese, and overpriced.. well everything!
my first ever concert, with my neighbor! jonas brothers (:

august- happy 55th daddy, 40 years older then me. and dreading going back to school..

September - i entered high school..
enough said.
and scandals of a sweet 16.. intriguing..

october- halloween was spent as an 80's exercise girl. getting candy from a cul-de-sac

novemeber - hello boyslike girls! second concert
ft. versa emerge, a rocket to the moon, the maine and cobra starship

my brother's 13th
and another scandalous 16th, the mirror image of my idea.
i need to put a patent on things..

thanksgiving... mountains , once again.

december - that just happened
gifts exchange, jingle ball, christmas..
(were our tree was the sole decoraion put up christmas eve, mass the next day, a sole dinner eating my favorite pizzeria's hoagie. yum!)

and a secret card.. containing $20. they hid their disguise and we're still looking

and lastly dec 31st new years. was the most mysterious, a high and low rise of events.
from everyone canceling, to winning the lottery

so this is what i want to end with.
god bless, and thank you for everything.
and.. 2010
bring it on!





i will master you!