tom

im not consistent, but im pretty good at posting when things are important.
generally.

another sweet 16 on the way.

talk about conformity, protagonist. i wanna be that one person to change, stand out. im an individual, an individual following the trends of those outside this suburban snowglobe.
is it enough?

i need wedges, and dangly earrings. and a good day with eye makeup. max factor and urban decay, your on your way. i need to bring in clinique and try not to look like death.

cameras. please come. a Philly steak, a walk around town, a tent. that's what i want.
i miss those green days, starry nights. i want to blow bubbles, take photos, and feel the sand between my toes. i wanna hike, camp out and roast marshmallows.

but just one wish. snow tomorrow, a day off and no s.s. test.

my train of thought ended from where it was.

p.s.
ill take some vintage, and a fresh coat of paint. the old, the new.

i miss this.

this is reality

alright so its been a few days since my last post, and not much is really happening. well.. happened.
i've been doing better in school. went to an awesome sweet 16.

but this is more about whats coming up. a booked weekend, but knowing my luck all plans will be canceled.
i need to find a dress for a sweet 16. and i need to see... shutter island, valentine's day, and the lightening thief.

but the main point of this article.. haha i mean blog. for me, i guess and for those of well no one that reads this.
formsprings have become the web's (mainly facebook) version of truthbox from myspace.
its a place where people submit questions. but it has turned into for most people, a place where cowards come and post what they think.
people who judge, don't have any right to.
and you don't know whats going on in their life. choose your words carefully and well don't be a butt.
if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all. and if it really matters that much, don't spam their formspring with pointless comments, say it to our face.
we had an entire three weeks on dating, internet bullying, etc, and look at what is still going on. although people (including myself) bring it upon our selves (technically) by creating these sits.
we don't need your criticism. those are for your head , and your head only. although it doesn't bother me, some people it does,
and even if your serious, you probably don't mean all you say when you know that some of these people could have horrible tradgic backgrounds, or you could push their way to the end.
so please, don't post what people don't care about. you just look like an idiot, because that's all you really are.

i want studded everything.

variety

so i posted the title, thinking that would be what my blog focused around. and i think its more going to rambling.
variety is in music, clothes, people, beauty.
pretty much it.

im wearing vintage earrings from my momma, but i need cooler clothes.
more clothes.
i need to go snag the betsey johnson glasses i hid.
i need to find the glasses i've lost.
i have a sunglass collection. a button (as in pin) collection. and a coin collection.
those are the most significant collections i'd like to keep up with. i have a pencil, rock, stamp collection..
someone once told me a collection was 3 or more items. i have a collection of everything.

my clothes are a variety. my music. and i realized people can think all types of people are beautiful.
i prefer tall dark and handsome.. and muscular. generally speaking.

i got an a on my math test.

i need jeggings. i need to go shopping. i need to buy a gift for my friend.

my hair is long,
i change my facebook profile picture too much,
i ramble a lot,
i make no sense...a lot,
i miss a lot of people,
i hope it snows on monday.
i embarass myself a lot.
i need to go shopping tonight.... somehow i feel like i've said this.

i can't type fast enough for my thoughts, so now they float in an endless abyss, the ones from now and the ones from my bus.
i had an idea for my picture, but now im not sure which one, or if i've jsut forgotten all of them. this makes no sense... are you confused?

i wish i had a mole, a real monroe mole, and i wish i could smoke, only in the classy form, maybe i'll settle for studded clothing.

what makes average?

i may just end up posting another blog tonight perhaps, or one tomorrow. but i know if i wait any longer my thoughts from this morning will vanish.

16.5 inches of snow last night. i came home and sat with earmuffs on until they warmed once i took a shower.

simple things in life are the most pleasurable at times. friends&company. cheese-its. music. and a fuzzy robe.

i forgot to mention the falling out i had with the snow, that last saturday we received over 12 inches. and because of that 12 inches, my tour was canceled . we the kings, i will see you one day.

i set a goal to win a contest. hopefully that might be the taylor swift concert. maybe the selena gomez. second goal, to make a friend in a celebrity. i'm not saying that just because of who they are, but they're astounding people i wish i knew before they were famous, because i know i'd fit in just fine with them.

another average thing.
gasoline - snowblowers and pickup trucks.
chocolate cake for breakfast. it is those simple things.

i look at astounding women. i want to be them. they're unqiue, far from average. but being that average person with one good quality makes them something that the world cherishes, i believe i hold that quality. so i'll stand before the world to judge; one day.
until that time. i will enjoy the snow (:

the kennedy family.
jackie o, so poised, so full of class.

the pains eating away

day 41,
so much for keeping up with the blog.

this will be totally confusing and I'll be rambling, and ill try and paragraph things correctly. hopefully. and all of my commas will be in the wrong spots. sorry !
that's all we've been learning about with grammar in english. i swear i learned more in the first 2.. or has it been 3? weeks of english class this year then i have my entire english career. 4 years of true english class, going strong! see there should be no comma there.. I'm gonna shut up.
god when i type blogs I'm like talking to myself . this is unhealthy.

so yesterday i realized i have become way to dependent on the computer. actually I'm not dependent, i just jump onto online sites, which is ironic, because for the past 2 weeks that has been heavily discouraged.

i realized these past few months i can not go a day without some ailment occurring. i feel like my chest is being stabbed right now, my nose stuffy. i have exactly 4 cuts on my fingers and i came home sick yesterday. my headache has been trailing me along off and on for months at a time, its like a tea kettle. quietly simmering, until the whistle howls and it hits you.

its snowing. apparently, we've been having all these snowstorms, like with actually names. blizzards. to me, its just snow. it doesn't seem any more scarier then all the other times, but hey, we knew about being off last night, that's a plus right?

there is no point to this blog. but i wanted to really just outline my goals. some of which have already been accomplished. which is raising my grades. so here it goes...

GOALS:
-break a 4.0
-get my nose pierced (march?)
-find a good camera. digital? one for concerts and amazing photography, without breaking my parents wallet.
+ (hey look i have an outline!) learn how to become an amazing photographer before i die
+ learn how to do bokeh
-master photoshop
-get a summer job
-find a way to organize my jewelery
-go through absolutely everything and get rid of what i don't need
-start going to the gym more
+actually have noticeable results
-read a book at least once a month
-clean out my ipod (or get a new one)
-master eyeliner (the bottom)
-refrain from wasting money
-find the 'it's about time' cd
-start a record collection
-actually go see all the movies i want to, in theater
-win something
-manage to not have a dud of a 16th
-haircut
+donate to locks of love
+get a right cut/high-low lights
-find my style
+shop for clothes (reasonable priced)
+vintage shopping
-get good at singing
-figure out more about colleges
-meet a celebrity
+stick in
-continue with collections
+sunglasses
+pins
-find the first jb rolling stone magazine
-go to California
-actually post youtube videos
-keep record of my life
-don't loose things
+clips
-master daily routines
-figure out my password for everything
+delete sites i don't use
-get rid of myspace after pictures saved
+find, save, and remember where pics are saved (this is important)
-keep up with my blog (even if just for me)
... one last goal...
-have fun (:

that probably is not all i wanted to say, but oh well




this is the view from my window, my bench is hidden. how much snow accumulated?